The last few weeks have been challenging.
I have been sick. First an infection, then a stupid cold. Yes, colds are stupid.
Mom has been injured for the last month, at least, maybe longer. She had a nasty fall and has not been able to recover. The last 2 weeks have been horrendous for her. It is hard to watch someone suffer and not know how to fix it. Mom is tough as nails and you know if she is down, there is a problem.
Last week, at the same time Mom is completely incapacitated, Dad gets sick. He can’t eat. He can’t drink. Both parents…..down.
Steve is so busy this time of year ( I hate the word busy but it fits) Government entities-new budgets-spending money-yes busy. I try to have zero expectations. Sometimes my “try” is successful and sometimes it’s not.
Dad needed to go to the Cancer doctor this week. Mom can’t drive. I’m in charge. We walk in, Dad is so very sick and I want them to see how sick he is. Maybe someone will do something. Anything. The nurse comes in, they take his vitals. His 0xygen level is so low, it doesn’t read. Go to the hospital. Don’t stop at the desk. Just go.
Long story short, he’s ok. It’s not cancer related thank goodness but wow……what a week. I’m super drugged up with cold medicine trying to survive while taking care of Dad at the hospital and Mom at home. We survived and even prepared a Thanksgiving meal. The kids are here and my heart is full.
This morning I did not wake up thankful. I woke up weapy and grumpy trying to figure out how to get everything done on this Thanksgiving day. I got over it. I remembered to be thankful.
There are more things to be thankful for than I can begin to list. I don’t need to list them, I just need to remember them. Life is sometimes hard and that won’t change. There will be difficulties and hurt. Tears and probably times that a scream might need to happen. However I will remember that my God is in control. He holds me tightly in the palm of His hand. He knows every hair on my badly needed colored hair. He loves me even when I act ugly. This will never change.
I have amazing friends who will stand in the gap for me. They will hold my arms up even when they know I won’t ask. They will sit and visit with my family like they are their own. will spend hours with me in the hospital when I know I wasn’t the best friend.
It doesn’t have to be Thanksgiving day to be thankful. Sometimes I will forget to be thankful but today, I remembered.
The girl who is thankful for you. Have a blessed day.